Whats really confusing is doing a normal activity like cooking, or reading - then to find I'm in Finland and not in NZ. It's upsetting, I know I choose to be here nothing besides the whole money thing is making be stay - and the fact that when I am not thinking I do enjoy myself. Which is quite a bit of the time now, just yea. It is hard to explain, such simple things. Like doing something and realising that you cant just text Tabi or Rach and tell them what just happened. Or come home after working and argue with Jeremy or talk to Jolene and mum.
Just having people around my own age constantly who I can talk too - face to face.
This is an amazing experience and will be one of the best things you do in life. If you give up you are just going to end up regretting it. Of course it is incredibly hard I understand that, I've done it too, but your friends back home aren't going anywhere and you will make more friends over here. If you keep thinking about how much you wont to go home all the time then you are not going to enjoy this experience as much as you could.
ReplyDeleteDont worry. I am trying, going out tonight and meeting lots of people. Just was in an upset stage
ReplyDeleteFriends back home arent going anywhere? We are! I believe I am doing something good with my life, which will in a tiny way improve society and help other people. That was a very big generalisation and I am offended by it.
ReplyDeleteOh and Josi, Love you. =) Just because you make new freidns doesnt mean they will be any better than what we are to you, but you hae the right to make them and enjoy them, and develop those relationships.
Tabi I think what was meant that you will still be there for Jos as her friend when she comes back - not that you werent doing anything with your life. Josephine's good friends would still be here for her when she comes home - like she is having new experiences - so are you. Jos - your family will still be here too, we all will be different as you are, but still love you.
ReplyDeleteHmmmmm okies if your sure =)
ReplyDeleteYea all new experience, but we are growing in different ways, but still close.
Love you.